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Christmas 2007

Dear Friends, 

In my last letter I called it a gap year but I came to believe that Sabbatical Year sounded more grown up and serious.  Whatever that last year might be called, I was reminded of those tiresome ‘improving and uplifting’ birthday cards, sort of Readers Digest cod-philosophy.  “Today is the first day of the rest of your life”,  Nevertheless I did feel this on and after 1st November last year when I came back from Canada.  I put things in train to sell the house, pack up and move. I felt a great sense of excitement, relief, of closure of the preceding 68 years, of looking to the future, of taking charge of my life so that now, soon, soon after you get this letter, as my 70th birthday approaches …read on.

 Christmas was quiet as each child and partner went abroad, but also there was a kind a fin de siècle feel to it, taking ingredients from the cupboard, using up the last of it and aware that I shall not replace it till I am installed elsewhere.   Drink up the wine in the cellar and almost resent some delicious honey I was given (can I finish it by February? Is it too silly to move with half a pot of honey?).  But we ate well and had some company on various days and I mused how much I do value Christmas even though I do not believe in Christ as saviour.  As a matter of fact of course it is nearly all pagan, and the puritan killjoys were right to disapprove.  The New Testament says nothing about what time of year Jesus was born and even if it were in midwinter there would be unlikely to be much snow on the ground in Palestine.  The tree and the reindeer are obviously Germanic, and the transmogrification of Saint Nicholas of Myra (or Bari) into the blessed Santa of Neiman Marcus – his attributes: red coat with white edging, ditto soft bonnet; a white beard and sack of purchases. On one side a decorated pine tree, on the other, one or more reindeer.

 Prof. Hugh Trevor Roper in a letter  to Bernard Berenson December 1957 – recounting his own words on BBC to a young man with ‘religious doubts’:

 Young man … these doubts are nothing. You think certain doctrines of the Church [of England] unplausible. Of course you are quite right: they are. But why should you expect them to be plausible? How can you seriously suppose that doctrine devised to befuddle the senses of illiterate peasants in the pre-scientific Middle East should stand up to our exacting tests? The doctrine of the Church, that extraordinary patchwork garment, which nevertheless has a certain archaic beauty, is not tailor-made to fit you. It is a reach-me-down garment, somewhat moth eaten in places, as needs must be; but it has fitted many a good man in the past, and will fit you, if you wear it lightly and don’t go about drawing attention to the admittedly numerous holes which now make up a major part of it …

 After a rotten stormy and wet night, the first day of the year 2007 started clear and blue and unwilling just to sit at home and wait for the next meal, Virginia and I decided to make an excursion.  Not too far, not too taxing, and eventually hit on Windsor. and after a distinctly mediocre lunch at Café Rouge served by a pretty Polish waitress (all waitresses are now Polish unless they are Lithuanians or Lats), we scampered up to the castle to discover it was closing at – well they closed the doors behind us.  Old people’s tickets, we avoided the Doll’s House of Queen Disney of Windsor, and went first to the drawings gallery showing several fine drawings of Leonardo,  a Raphael and Michelangelo, and a few Holbeins (superb) and then a collection of slushy photos of HM.  And so into the State Rooms. Ugh. 

 Like a set in a rather upscale Hollywood blockbuster for a Walter Scott novel (which I suspect is exactly what it was designed to be) I can well see that it would truly, truly impress a newly installed proletarian Garter Knight or a third world Dictator: In fact they show a film of HM escorting just such a beribboned black man to dinner … A few good Lawrences, a room full of truly good Rubens’s and the Van Dyck children and a slushy flattering picture of Queen Henrietta Maria (who was famously ugly) and a lot of large copies of good portraits… oh yes, & a truly superb bronze relief by Adraen de Vries, tucked away in a corner to make sure it is missed (but it wasn’t).

 And then hurry, hurry they’re closing, to St George’s chapel, the finest example of Perpendicular (was it? never can tell one Goth from another) … but the chapel itself indeed bleak with fake George IV woodwork and gilding like the rest of the castle.  The whole effect reminds me (as Buckingham Palace does too) of a grand hotel, Helmsley Palace say, NYC.  Yes I know the hotels were made to look, and named, for palaces, but they now do it better and the real palaces look phoney and a bit tired.  I wonder what the Elisée looks like inside! 

 And so decanted back into the High St we drove home along the Thames via Runnymede – where Magna Carta was signed.  Why does King John never get any credit for signing Magna Carta? Was his not the first signature on a human-rights document? But he always gets blame instead of praise. Maybe he had to be persuaded a bit, maybe he listened to arguments before signing. So did the Parliament that took twenty years to abolish slavery. John signed, he ought to be credited. England is proud of abolishing slavery, because of Magna Carta, proud of Magna Carta, but ashamed of King John.

 Into the New Year – St Moritz. We were lucky.  Global warming or not, there was almost no snow anywhere else in Europe (huge dumps in Santa Fe and Colorado). But they kept all the pistes open and though hard-packed, we had two weeks of almost uninterrupted sunshine and skiing every day. And be assured we ate enough - during this time the house was going through all the procedures and processes of legal sale.

 On the 26th January 2007, four days before my sixty-ninth birthday, I signed the contract that obliged me to vacate my house by 2nd March.  I had partially arranged for packers and made some arrangements for the books but I had no where to go and only an intention of where that might be. A bit scary – I have never been legally homeless before. ‘Unemployed of no fixed address’ sounds as bad as it can be.

 I sleep lightly and usually wake several times in the night. But the pattern is puzzling.  I understand that the earth rotates in a day, which is what we call from sunrise to sunrise (and the earth goes round the sun from equinox to equinox in about 365 ¼ days). These are real figures and it is not surprising that animals, including man, have adapted various rhythms to this cycle.  But it was we who divided the day into 24 hours which are quite arbitrary – it could as easily have been 36 like the compass or any other number.

 I know from my reading about sleep and sleep disorders that nearly all people, even so called insomniacs, spend about ten minutes getting to sleep and then sleep for almost exactly 90 minutes and then either wake or go deeper. After this patterns vary.  And so it is with me – if I fall asleep at say 11.40 (not uncommon) I will most often wake for the first time at 1.20 am.  Maybe get up, bathroom, straight back to sleep. 2.20, 3.20 .4.20 – how does the body count the exact hours? Usually only out by one or two minutes which can be accounted as the time it takes me to look at the clock. Maybe at 4.20 I get bored and turn the light on and read – after an hour I am sleepy again and nod off to sleep again, maybe wake at 7.20  - rise. The minutes may vary depending when I first went to sleep, but how and why does the body know to count such exact hours? Not every night but surprisingly often. Our division of the day into 24 hours is arbitrary.  Or maybe it isn’t and the division does after all correspond to something intrinsic. What?

 London’s bus stops are plastered with advertisements for The Prince’s Trust, a worthy organisation under the patronage of the Prince of Wales, which seeks to channel underprivileged young people into useful and rewarding enterprises.  The advertisement shows just such a dejected teenager below an inscriptions that says:

 God?

Father Christmas ?

Some people don’t even believe in themselves.

 Good strong stuff and effective copy, and I have no problem with it. But the Prince will one day be head of the Church of England (if he makes it to king) and I would have thought it unwise of the Prince to associate belief in God with belief in Father Christmas.  But then there are lots of people who seem to think of Father Christmas (Santa) as if he were somehow a Christian symbol. Vide supra.

 Tuesday 30th January  9.00 am: My sixty-ninth birthday. Unimportant, except that the next one has the dreaded zero on the end. It is perhaps the first time in my life that I am all alone and doing nothing in the evening.  Well what is one day among 69 x 365=25,185 days of my life?  25,000 days is quite a thought though!  I celebrated with my children on Sunday, SL invited me for a glass of Champagne last evening, a few emails and SMS messages and not a single card. But the post has not yet come and I am not very sentimental about cards. I am not very sentimental about birthdays either – but I suppose we shall have to celebrate a bit next year.

 Last report from the bird feeder. All the birds are back and seem to be feeding like mad, maybe breeding already at the end of January. Traditionally the birds do note mate till the 14th February (St Valentine).  And there is a pair of Robins, she well red breasted but thinner and sleeker than the plump male.  But no sign of our cripple – did he die over New Year while we were away or was he chased off by the breeding pair (they are very territorial). We fed him all year from a chick but now he’s gone. So, we have a pair each of blue tits, great tits, a whole shower of green finches and some sparrows too.  The occasional starlings, the fat pigeons and prowling below, the fox has been making free in the garden. I don’t mind because he won’t catch the small birds but probably chases away the cats, who might.

 The beautiful big red and white camellia is in full flower and gives me much joy one more time. But I shall not see my beloved Pawlonia in flower again nor the great chestnut with its Christmas candles (though the tree has some disease and is surely most unhealthy later in each year).  On the other hand, renting a flat in Lausanne, I presumed that I would see Mont Blanc instead, and have Lake Geneva (Lac Léman) at my feet and maybe import some pots to my balcony which looks a bit bleak and clinical at the moment. In fact I later found that though there are plenty of fine mountains visible, Mont Blanc is not one of them.

 I daresay this letter will get a bit scratchy from now on until I am safely in, with a roof over my head. Guy identified the flat on the internet – Tuesday 30th (my birthday), VP went to see it for me and declared it to be ‘perfect’ for me. Friday 2nd Feb. I flew to Geneva and by train to Lausanne for the day to look at it and took it. Yes, yes, I’ll have it. At least I think I took it but I went back in ten days to sign everything and arrange as best I could. Details to follow. Try to arrange packing and books and things and sort all details before that.  All very hectic. So, exhausted I spent Sunday just dozing in an armchair and reading and doing nothing. I feel better for that but it won’t get the cellar sorted.  And the car file and …. Drama, email from agent saying the flat was not to be had, had been let … ring everyone all of whom are on answering machines. By the end of a sickening day it transpires they were talking about the wrong flat, and the one I want is indeed ok but then another problem is that … no matter. By Thursday we seem to have solved it chiefly by the high intervention of my good friend CP (to whom I am now hugely, grovellingly, beholden). But I shall have time to repay when I am there and in. Two nice girls and a strong young man worked flat out for two days (8th/9th Feb) to pack up all my books and then two vans took away 115 cartons. After being briefly waist high in cartons, the book shelves are now bare, except I have put other things in them to some extent, things that were on the floor or under the chairs and tables etc.  But there is space. What there is not, is a single book. So as I sit exhausted there is nothing to read.  I have been through the paper exhaustively and I am holding back (will I succeed) on the last number of The Economist. They have been warning, increasingly hysterically, that the subscription is running out, and this one announced it was the last.  That’s alright – I shall buy them on the bookstands as I go and restart when I am settled in Lausanne.  And I did single out a few books to read in the inter-regnum including Thoreau with whom I have struggled so long – with no choices I may finish Walden and then hurl him forever away.

 But I did finish another life of Alexis de Tocqueville and found that in old age he loved nothing better than reading the autobiography of Edward Gibbon (of Decline and Fall). So I went to the London Library and got it out and hallo, maybe I did know in some distant recess of the brain, but I had certainly forgotten. Gibbon spent a couple of years in Lausanne and wrote a ‘Souvenir de Lausanne’ apparently in French. At least there is nothing to indicate a translator – so I shall restart my French language course with that. Later he came back (see below).

 In my attempt to drink up the cellar (I failed) I enjoyed some rather good wines, offering to all and sundry and oh, isn’t this fun. And all those things in the freezer.  Though as for that the removal man told me they have moved freezers full of contents, and plugged them in overnight still on the van and then started off again in the morning without mishap. I have about 14 more days here to eat it all – must not buy anything except bread and milk and a bit of lettuce – but I cannot resist a few oysters and above all the fine kippers. I shall miss those. 12th Feb. back to Lausanne, sort out legal matters and … but I am already bored with London and Clapham and I want to be IN the new flat and sorting my things and arranging and hanging and wait… I do not even have a lease yet. Hold it. Calm down.

 Many people have asked what my children think of the move. In truth it never occurred to me to ask them, nor have they offered other than practical advice – mostly to throw things out. With telephone and email I shall have nearly as much contact as heretofore and besides, if one or other of them had been offered an attractive job (or spouse) in Australia or Los Angeles I hope, and I am sure, they would take it without qualm, not wondering what might happen to papa. And quite right too, they have their lives to live and I must get on with whatever will be left of mine.

 12th February there was a light drizzle and a grey sky in Lausanne – and the following morning it was worse and made me think maybe V. was right to deprecate the area on climatic grounds. But then by midday the sun came out, shining, sparkling and brilliant upon the lake and the mountains beyond, in France, across to Evian and Thonon were revealed with a dusting of icing sugar snow which made them look crisp and inviting. And as I drove into the city the whole atmosphere lifted and became altogether winter-cheerful, not too cold, bright and clean.

 Of course I was not on holiday and had to start to get my head round the mind blowing bureaucracy of em/immigration. By Thursday I felt I was winning, thanks in part to the kindness and efficiency of several people, in particular the P’s, who also gave me a bed. As of old, and without any corruption, it nevertheless helps to have friends in high places. Not only to pull strings (he said it was more like pulling a huge rope) but also because others, anxious to please HIM, become helpful too. Maybe it would have been alright anyway but that is how it felt.  Certainly I got good comfort.

 Exhausted I collapsed and slept fully eight hours – unusual for me – and felt better for it on the last day. Ring everyone again to make sure everything is ok. Seems to be. Go and look at another house which I certainly shall not buy (but everyone is suddenly tumbling in to try to sell to me). Until I am IN the new place I shall not start looking for a permanent abode. Maybe this IS a permanent abode.

 By the Swiss Cantonal authorities and others I am repeatedly, understandably, asked: Why Switzerland? Why Lausanne? Why indeed?

 I have often been to Switzerland on holiday and I have done business in Switzerland over many years and always with pleasure and mutual advantage. I have come to have Swiss friends and expatriate friends living is Switzerland. 

 Now approaching seventy years, my family adult and independent of me, I feel it is time to retire to a congenial place. Switzerland, a geographically central, well organised, secure and efficient country seems totally suitable. Why Lausanne? I speak French reasonably well; good communications, proximate ski slopes and airport (Geneva):opera, theatre, concert hall, good food and local wines – I believe I can be happy here and maybe even contribute something to the cultural life of the city. I hope so.

 Retire? What is retirement?  Should I not look at art, not sell something if I get the right price (or need the money)?  Buy something I like that seems good value? Broker a deal that leaves a commission? But I shall seek out less business, seek out more pleasure, go to museums leisurely, and ski, and enjoy the sunlight on the snowy peaks, the grassy slopes and the sheer rocks of the mountains.

  

Since there's no help come let us kiss and part.

Nay I have done; you get no more of me.

And I am glad, yea, glad with all my heart,

That thus so cleanly I myself can free.

Shake hands for ever; cancel all our vows.

And when we meet at any time again,

Be it not seen in either of our brows

That we one jot of former love retain.

Now, at the last gasp of Love's latest breath,

When, his pulse failing, Passion speechless lies,

When Faith is kneeling by his bed of death,

And Innocence is closing up his eyes, -

Now, if thou wouldst, when all have given him over,

From death to life thou might'st him yet recover.

Michael Drayton

 

But no, there is no going back in life.  Sixty nine years in England is enough. England gave me my education and my language; two careers, two wives, two children. I think I have done all I can do from England, from here on I would only be repeating and recycling - it is time to move on and see whether a new life in a new place with new people can give a new perspective, new horizons. So, like a lover taking a slightly wistful and half regretful leave, I shall go. But note that I go by unforced choice; It is not at all really sudden either –  only the sudden fruition of long standing thoughts and plans.

 Three bodies packed up the books for three days and then six packed the art and other things for another week.  For the last weekend I had a bed and two chairs (and most of my clothes in my bedroom), a computer on which I write this in the wreckage of an office and some implements but no food in the kitchen.  Went out for dinner Saturday night, accepting a last farewell invitation. And on Monday 26th February 2007 they stowed everything into two huge pantechnicons and set off for the continent, I to race then down and be there to await arrival.

 I left London as dusk fell and drove toward the channel. I ought I suppose to have felt some emotion but Lewisham in rush hour was as dreary as when I used to live near there: I reached the towers and ogival arches of Faux Gothick Eastwell in two hours and all I felt was tired.  A decent if unremarkable dinner, a glass of Sancerre, and then a cigar I did not really appreciate before a joyless ‘olde Englishe Logge Fyre’ , freshly stoked for my benefit in an otherwise empty lounge. I read the IHT I had not looked at all day and that was hardly inspiring, so to bed by 10.00. The effect of all that oak panelling was rather spoiled by The Burlington Magazine I had with me, displaying on the back cover a real and beautiful bust of Christ from the early 16th century. Not really Gothic any more, but THAT’S what Gothic should look like, not all those phoney copies of distorted jesters, constipated in their  hunchback long pantouffles.

 Dawn breaks in gentle rain from a grey sky.   The right day to leave England forever. Not forever of course but probably the last time as resident. By the time I got to the terminal the rain had settled into a downpour. Go. In truth this is no big deal. There is a dream of a united Europe even though Switzerland does not formally belong.  Switzerland lies at the heart of Europe, and it ‘feels’ very European, whatever that might be thought to mean.

 Edward Gibbon, author of “The Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire” and perhaps the founding father of modern history, left England as a young man, for Lausanne on 19th June 1753. “We … crossed the sea from Dover to Calais, travelled post through several provinces of France, Picardy, Champagne and Franchecomté, by the direct road  of St.Quentin, Rheims, Langres and Besançon and arrived on the 30th June at Lausanne …”  This is exactly the route I took in eight hours or so on 27th February 2007.  In fact five days later I interrupted my unpacking to attend the fair in Maastricht; and Gibbon too, on his return to England, in the Spring of 1758 describes “The jealousy of war prohibited my passage through France, but I assumed the name and dress of a Swiss Officer in the Dutch service, without sufficient reflection of the danger of a discovery and the guilt of a disguise. … the journey was slow and pleasant through the provinces of Franche-Comté, Lorraine, Luxembourg and Liège. After dropping my two military companions at their garrisons of Maestricht and Bois-le-Duc, I indulged myself in a short visit to The Hague  and Rotterdam” …”

In fact he paid another visit to Lausanne in 1763, stopping in Paris on the way “At home we are content to move in the daily round of pleasure and business; and a scene which is always present is supposed to be within our knowledge, or at least within our power. But in a foreign country curiosity is our business and our pleasure; and the traveller, conscious of his ignorance and covetous of his time, is diligent in the search and the view of every object that can deserve his attention.  I devoted many hours of the morning in the circuit of Paris and the neighbourhood, to the visit of churches and palaces conspicuous by their architecture, to the royal manufactures, collections of books and pictures, and all the various treasures of art, of learning and of luxury.  An Englishman may hear without reluctance that in these curious and costly articles Paris is superior to London,  since the opulence of the French capital arises from the defects of the government and religion. …. “  Eventually, some twenty years later,  he retired to Lausanne and spent the rest of his life there, only occasionally returning to England. And on my first visits I feel like that about London now.

 “From my early acquaintance with Lausanne I had always cherished a secret wish that the school of my youth might become the retreat of my declining age. A moderate fortune would secure the blessings of ease, leisure, and independence: the country, the people, the manners, the language, were congenial to my taste; and I might indulge the hope of passing some years in the domestic society of a friend … … Before I could break my English chain, it was incumbent on me to struggle with the feelings of my heart, the indolence of my temper, and the opinion of the World which unanimously condemned this voluntary banishment.  In the disposal of my effects, the library, a sacred deposit, was excepted…  … from the garden a rich scenery of meadows and vineyards descends to the Leman lake, the prospect far beyond the lake is crowned by the stupendous mountains of Savoy.  My books and my acquaintance had been first united in London; but this happy position of my library in town and country was finally reserved for Lausanne….  And so on. From my window, the vineyards between me and the lake at Ouchy have been rather built up and my books are still in the cellar (but they are here).  By good fortune and design I am delighted that the first book I have read here is the Autobiography of Edward Gibbon. 

 18th March. Fed up with opening boxes and stowing things. I have been on the go nearly three weeks including the excursion to Maastricht.  Sunday morning Orchestre de Chambre de Lausanne at the Salle Metropole.  Quite a nice 1931 building, clean lines of the period, a bit fascist looking in truth, because of the date, glass,  marble, concrete. The interior a bit basic and the seats no more comfortable than Blackheath used to be, and a slightly dull programme of Richard Strauss and Haydn. But adequately played and enthusiastically received by a large full house. The acoustics excellent.  Ever since Blackheath I am rather sensitive to this since ‘my’ hall had such a fine almost perfect acoustic (it had other faults) – the Albert Hall in London remains an acoustic disaster, but then it was built as a boxing ring.  Then I wandered up to the Museum and saw a small exhibition of Noah’s  Flood scenes but only one or two good things; and a superb video by Bill Viola. He has already become an ‘Old Master’.  Everything in walking distance – home for lunch.

 So, first impressions. The move is hard work and not finished. No doubt it will prove to have been expensive (I have not had the bill yet) but ultimately it was uneventful – everything happened.  People were kind, some even helpful, friends were amazed, some admiring and others disapproving in about equal measure. No conclusions from that quarter. The one thing I notice is that I do not feel too strange as I come into my apartment and this is clearly because all my things are here. This is my nest, my twigs and feathers, and if some are in different rooms and in a separated order, new juxtapositions,  that is fine. Some are definitely displayed better than before. The kitchen is small and unsatisfactory and I shall have to come to terms with that. I am used to a bigger sink and a bigger hob.  The shower in my bathroom is mean and small and leaks. My shower in Clapham leaked too but it was capacious. These are details, but what to do about the books is another matter.

 With eager anticipation I took up Gibbon’s Journal de Lausanne, but it proved disappointing.  Mostly an account of what he was reading: Latin authors with long quotes in Latin – I do not read Latin and since the Journal itself is in French, this was too much for me. And at the end of each entry a short account of what notables he had met and how dull or interesting they were – a 250 year old gossip column. I don’t like gossip columns or memoirs of name dropping banality in English and I couldn’t do with it in French. I persevered for the sake of the language practice and to be able to say I had read it  [I now have].  But  I mostly skipped the reading matter, ignored the Latin, and hoped for some gem. Most of the gems were in the autobiography. I think it is the first time I have ever read a book entirely in French.

 Full moon over Lake Geneva. Clear view over to the lights of Evian over the water. A few wispy bits of cloud illuminated over the black sky.  Pretty.  02.22. Go back to bed.

  

Busie olde foole unrulie sunne, why dost thou thus

Through windows and through curtaynes  call on us ….

 

So John Donne nearly four hundred years ago. To sleep well I need as near black out as I can get (and never had in Clapham). Now I have roller blinds which do black out and I am not sure I like them either. They are rather laborious to wind up and down though I certainly sleep better. I am not woken by the light (I wake anyway) but once awake there is something stygian that is unsympathetic. There IS something thrilling about the sun pouring in through my south facing large windows, glistening on the lake.  The rollers take rather to long to wind up – if I could just leap out of bed and throw them open and let the light come pouring in… fortunately one blind (‘store’ in French which I find confusing) is defective and has been removed – I can whisk the heavy curtains open quite fast.  Try that. Actually the sun rises at the back and reflects off building rather as it did in fact in London. Very light.

 Jonathan Raban in NYRB  12/04/07

Sullivan’s own church [RC] painted in many hues and richly furnished with childhood memories, is seen warmly, from within; those of the American evangelicals are regarded coldly from without, as when he betrays a frank aesthetic distaste for the vulgarity of their architecture – “mega-churches that look and feel like shopping malls and foot-ball stadiums.” Every age gets the ecclesiastical architecture that its social and political concerns warrant, and it’s worth remembering that the great churches of pre-reformation Europe, which Sullivan loves, look and feel like towered and battlemented military fortresses. Then, churches were built like castles, to intimidate; now, like shopping centers and sports arenas, they take entertainment rather than war as their model, which some might construe as a humanitarian advance of sorts.

 It was absolutely delicious but all wrong and I regret I don’t like it anymore!. On my way back to England I stayed the night in Chalons (formerly Ch.–sur-Marne now, presumably for touristic reasons Ch.-en-Champagne; road signs sort of alternate as if they couldn’t be sure). The town is conveniently on the way and about halfway between Switzerland and London and the hotel has a restaurant with a Michelin star. I have stayed there before and it is comfortable, not too expensive, there is a market  and a charcutier next door so I can buy food goodies to take to England (formerly for myself, now exclusively as presents) and I went down to dinner at 7.45. A glass of champagne? – no I preferred a glass of excellent local white wine and at the bar they brought TWO bon-bouches (bah – it used to be ‘amuse-gueule, but even the French have succumbed to PC like the town council), oh, and then I had a some escargots with capers and fresh baby artichoke hearts, followed by perfectly pink little rognons de veau in a brown sauce with little, little chestnuts and shallots (usually they can’t resist baby turnips these days, I think only because they are available – maybe they weren’t) washed by a glass of Bouzy Rouge.  And I demanded tap water, and then in the bar again smoked a cigar and had a perfect Mirabelle served in a fine brandy bowl tilted sideways so the liquid was on crushed ice. All very good, and refined and excellent – I have been eating a bit like that in Lausanne, of course so it is no longer so special.  

In retrospect I should have gone to the bistro attached or another and had the same or similar wine, escargot de Bourgogne (in garlic and butter) and the kidney’s in mustard sauce, large and bloody and a Mirabelle maybe warm and a cigar and good honest hard stuff and I think I like it better. The starred meal was in fact excellent. But somehow it seems effete, lacking punch, weak, maybe decadent.  No doubt the mood will pass, and after too much steak and chips I shall long for the refinements again and sing like Hamlet “Oh that this too, too solid flesh would melt…”

  

Eric Zemmour in Le Figaro, actually talking about the French elections – my free translation:  Economics has been emancipated from Politics. This is total separation, a real divorce. Politics got to keep the children – the social services - but doesn’t know how to pay for their dinner.  Power is no longer powerful, hence the disarray of the politicians and the disappointment of the public who no longer believe in democracy.

 In some ways my mind still seems alright or as alright as it ever was.  I can still recite poetry from memory, especially if the memory is long enough ago, I am learning French quite well, I can see flaws in quasi-logical arguments … but oh, but if ever I get an Alzheimer type disease (may heaven forefend) note, note this,  it started here quite insidiously. 

Short term memory has of course been deteriorating for a while – if I don’t make a list I shall forget what I came out to do. Even so at the supermarket I may forget to look at the list and fill a basket with other things I did not need. I come upstairs and forget why and have to go down again before I remember. I open the fridge and can’t think what I wanted to take out of it. I take that to be a normal sign of the ageing process.  But the ability to mislay things en masse is new. You know, I had a pencil, penknife, Customs Form, wallet a minute ago and now its gone. Search, fail to find, call on St Anthony, still fail to find, later it reappears.  Pipe, cigar (lighted), camera, cooking spoon come and go of their own volition.  And I have started to DROP things, nearly every week something else: not serious yet, a pencil, an onion, my reading glasses (nothing broken yet but that will come) I NEVER DROPPED ANYTHING IN MY LIFE.  Never? Well yes, of course I did, but not much and rarely, not one of my faults. Presumably a reduction of neuromuscular sensory coordination. I was (am?) reasonably skilful with my hands, dentist, surgeon etc. but things are slipping out of them – I hope this is not a metaphor as well as, or  a progressive sign of, something worse.

 I know there are colonies of Brits living in Marbella who after couple of decades speak not a word of Spanish – there are Pakistanis living in Bradford who speak no English. I cannot understand this attitude. I admit that when I came to Lausanne I already spoke adequate (adequate for what?) French. It was part of my reason for coming here, but even if I had moved to Japan or Croatia, surely the first thing to do would be to learn the language. Unlike the Francophones of France, the Swiss often really do not speak English but they are not hung up about how well others speak French. Their banknotes are written in four languages, their second language tends to be German, which the young people mostly don’t speak either. But they are happy with arm waving and long descriptive phrases - thing on which to hang my jacket (what is French for jacket?) on a metal thing on the back of the door = hook = crochet – got it. Coat is veste – vest is an undergarment in England, a waistcoat in USA.  Crochet (might have guessed from acrocher), not in chrome, yellow metal not gold – laiton, cuivre (the latter is really copper) – got it.  All that to ask where to start looking for a hook. Got it. But in the morning when I wake early I put on the music programme and they gabble away in French and the weather and the news and I am learning fast.   But I have not yet written a letter in French. Maybe it will fend off senility.

 Guy has got engaged to Kitty, his long term partner.  Hooray, and they are much in love and arranging a wedding in May next year, in Italy.  Now that anyone can live together, the whole point of a wedding is just that it is a public event, telling the community of their permanent togetherness.  And I suspect that half the reason for the decline in the status  of marriage is the decline of community. But the statistics belie this at least numerically – it seems that just as many people marry as ever before (marriages per head of population) but those figures are made up of second and third marriages.  Also not a new phenomenon, except that we are all living longer.  What they do not do is marry just because a child is on the way.  The people who bought my house are deeply religious, rushing to mass with the child every Sunday etc. – but not married. I don’t know the circumstances but surely unremarkable these days. 

 I had been tired the night before and went to bed early – probably fast asleep by 11.00. Sleeping well I nevertheless woke before dawn: it was just beginning to lighten up and I could hear the patter of water on the balcony outside the bedroom window.  A rainy Bank Holiday Monday is about the same in London as Lausanne. Dull, persistent, continuous rain from before dawn till after dusk, no appointments or social gatherings, Evian still just visible over the lake but the mountains beyond only vague shadows through the mist.  If the sun won’t come out, turn on the lights, all of them, turn up the radio first, later a new disc of Heifetz  (but it can’t be that new – he died some ten years ago and didn’t play for 20 years before that. I bought it a couple of days ago.)  The danger is eating too much, but the safeguard is that I was expecting to go out and so there is not much in the Fridge. I could of course still go out, but it is not tempting. No, do a bit of house keeping, nest arranging work (it needs it) arrange a few more items, clear the top of the Jacobean oak chest, move some clutter from one place to another – but it diminishes each time.   And fill in the form from the health insurance people that I have been putting off for two weeks (probably more like four). And the application for the Swiss driving licence (should I, shouldn’t I?).

 Paul Johnson, a journalist I used to admire until he went soft, nevertheless can throw off a spark once in a while: Giving a bad review to a book translated from the French: “Of course this kind of ranting sounds better in French.  In the early fifties when I was a correspondent in Paris, I used occasionally to transmit home similar diatribes by fashionable intellectuals. I discovered that in English they could be condensed by 50 or even 75 per cent without loss of meaning. Much of this book would benefit by similar treatment.”  They still teach Derrida at art schools in England – he could be cut by more. On the other hand I can thoroughly recommend “That Sweet Enemy” by Isabelle & Robert Tombs, a husband and wife team, she French, he English, reviewing the last 400 years of French/British relationships, wars and alliances in hilarious and detailed disagreement.  All readers of this letter who are French or British or/and American (must cover a large segment of my friends) should read it.

 I wondered whether the US hiway is related to their greeting (hi) - we spell High Road, the main street in a town, and so sometimes talk of being on the highway (more often figurative - the highway through life etc) to somewhere but not specifically a motorway. Ok, so the Americans dropped the gh (German Hoch - all silent gh's in English come from German ch) but what does their greeting "HI" mean? Surely not 'High'.  The American Webster’s Collegiate Dictionary is confusing – claiming the usage hi as early as fifteenth century.  So I turned to OED and so it is, but not that word.   Hi is old, old English German etc  which ultimately gave us ‘I’ (me) and goes back 1500 years.   But Hi the greeting is a form of ‘hey’ a call, or arrest, or demand.  I never liked it and now I know I was right (recht). I mostly do not open emails that start ‘hi’. – none of my friends address me thus (though many use no form of address in emails). Even so hi seems to go back to 1864 ‘N.American’.

 But it is inevitable that I compare French and French Swiss (La Suisse Romande) usages to English and England. In a Francophone country I naturally hear it all the time. I have long known that Americans ‘run’ for office, the presidency whereas the British ‘stand’ for Parliamentary elections etc.  And what does it say about England that a piece of music is ‘played’ by the London Symphony Orchestra but ‘interpreté’ by the same orchestra on France Musique which I hear nearly every day. And this is not just verbal – whereas Radio Three is content to ‘play’ the music and briefly tell you what it was and who played it, the French also insist on telling you when it was written, its place in the oeuvre of the composer, how the second movement recalls certain other works, is or is not a masterpiece, how the ‘sublime’ transition into Fa majeur is rather like … etc. Naturally authoritarian, they insist on telling me what I ought to think and need to know before I may have their permission to enjoy music at 7.30 in the morning. Sometimes I switch to Espace 2 which is Suisse Romande but suffers some of the same disadvantages mixed with local news.  Local news can be very local.  I have written two emails in French – in emails I can get away without using accents, maybe even fudge the gender endings of words.

 “The exotic dream is at our fingertips as we have witnessed the democratization of tourism; we can eat risotto in Hong Kong or sushi in London. Enjoy opera in Shanghai or solve sudokus in the Times; explore the new orient and discover the wild juxtaposition of bright neon lights against a backdrop of ancient temples.  We are no longer interested in the exotic … but prefer to mix and match. The trend is fusion.”  This was actually marketing copy for furnishing fabrics but I think they have a point. The very word ‘exotic’ means (OED) ‘strange or unusual’,  something from far away and outside our experience.  But we’ve eaten the food, worn the clothes, played the games. Very little can actually excite our curiosity or shock our sensibilities.  But what we may gain in reduction of prejudice and diversity of experience we may loose in originality. Once we’ve all got used to everything and anything we may lead a calmer life – I hope we shall not be bored.  Or we shall have to embrace scientific enquiry after all, which has everlastingly expanding frontiers. But that won’t furnish fabrics.

Lausanne on the other cannot be called exotic – from Google The city has been traditionally quiet but in the late 1960s and early 1970s there were a series of mainly youth demonstrations confronted by the police that gave rise to the motto 'Lausanne bouge'. In a rare showmanship of anti-authoritarianism, the youth responded by ascribing to the word 'flic' (cop) the term, 'Fédération Lausannoise des Imbéciles Casqués'.

The next vigorous demonstrations took place to protest against the high cinema prices and since then the city has returned to its sleepy self.” Obviously serious matters. I am told that the Swiss Army only ever killed one man – and he was a striking miner in the 1920’s.  Is this true?

 The technology is too clever for the people. I give everyone my telephone number and some of them write it down or enter it into their phones etc. That is the number I want to be called on, which has an answering message, service etc.  For a number of reasons I also have a fax line but in fact I have no fax machine.- so I put another hand set on it and use it as an occasional outgoing line to keep the incoming line which I have given everyone, clear.  But no, because nowadays people see and record who has called and on what number, they must call me back on the fax line, and complain that they are unable to leave a message.  But I have never given this number to anyone, don’t even know it. And of course the caller complainant does not know what number he called either. The same with email but at least it gets through. I tell everyone alex@wengraf.com but swisscom in their unwisdom of totalitarian marketing ploys insists on not letting me switch off the information that my emails go from a bluewin URL.   So people send back emails to the ‘wrong’ address though it does get through.  Should they alter their address book? NO, the whole point of having a memorable email is that people can remember it without looking it up. Ugh. Just before this letter goes out I think it is fixed.

 Sloes tend to ripen in England in September and in Charente (the only other place I have picked them) at the end of August but it seems they are earlier here. My lovely framer/gilder lady told me she was going on holiday to their little hut in the mountains of Vallais. In truth she was a little coy about when and where she was going and then she told me she liked to pick wild raspberries in the hills. In fact she makes up to 70/80 kg of raspberry jam. In fact the secret is that as she is her own boss, she takes ten days off when the raspberries are ripe which it seems is at the same time as the sloes, sometime around the Swiss National Fest (William Tell Day on 1st August, a truly Federal holiday) . They know nothing of sloe gin here and sloes have too much pip for jam, but I suppose for the pectin, she boils the sloes very thoroughly and discards them, but then makes the raspberry jam in the sloe syrup. Sounds wonderful and she has promised me a pot.  It still sounded like such a good idea that I wrote it all down here. Later I went back and gave her the recipe for sloe gin I had solicited from England (I doubt she will try it); but in doing so I discovered that I had quite misheard or misunderstood the French and she hardly knew what a sloe is.  Too bad really.

 The late Arthur Marshall (a very amusing journalist) was once asked what he did with his old clothes “I fold them up neatly and put them on again in the morning!”.  During forty years of what passed for a business career I wore a suit and tie every day and hated wearing the same suit two days running.  So I traveled with at least two mostly three or four suits, as many shirts and ties as there were days in the journey (often fourteen) and underwear etc as well – and because of my flat feet, several pairs of shoes too. I never mastered the art of traveling light and I still can’t. Now with so many restrictions by airlines I really do prefer to go by car if I can and throw everything, two or three or four suitcases of different sizes in the back. But here in Lausanne I often have few appointments; if the weather promises to be identical and I dress informally, instead of hanging up my trousers I leave them out – even so by morning I feel different and hang them away and wear a different pair, different  colour, whatever.  No tie but ties don’t take up much space and for four days in the south of France I still need a big suitcase and … oh well, the car is big enough and Lausanne is so central it is easy to drive.

 My skin tans easily and I am bored just lying in the sun. Hence my consumption of high barrier sun tan lotion is almost nil.  But if I do spend a few hours basking I like to use the old Ambre Solaire a brownish oil graded 2, which is fine for me and I fancy the oil is good for my skin. On such a day, idly lying in the sun on my balcony I studied the ingredients of which the main one is brassica olifiera. Hallo! Isn’t that our old friend Canola, Colza, Rape.  Google yes, indeed rapeseed oil. But I have a bottle of rapeseed oil, extra virgin, cold pressed, in the kitchen – read that label too. Good for everything except frying, keep out of sunlight!  Maybe different formula! End of sunbathing for that day.

 Incident: I read that the airlines are proud of the fact that less than 1% of bags go missing! Considering that they handle some 280 million bags per year (I forget the exact number) that still leaves some 2.8 million bags going walkies and you have a chance of arriving naked in one in every hundred flights.  I think it is more often than that but it may depend on criteria of loss. What is more impressive is the fact that they mostly do find them and deliver them within a day or two. Or not.

 At the beginning of August Virginia showed up without a suitcase, lost between Rome and Geneva.  Swissport a separate private company handles lost bags and delivery with impressive efficiency – but they do not want to be disturbed. Ring a number, press in the reference code and be told they are dealing with the matter and will call when they have the bag. After two days of stone wall, excitement, we are told they are putting the call through – to another voice that for three more days (exceptionally) cannot answer because they are ‘efficiently’ dealing with the bags they have. Try to ring Alitalia for information, press one for ticket purchase (just now you can purchase the airline too) – press two for all other queries.  For lost baggage ring Swissport. Totally circular, totally impeccably polite, impeccably opaque. No way to get through.  I tried an email and eventually DID get a reply to say the bag was in Budapest and would be sent direct to Geneva the following night.  Five and a half days later it was delivered and we are supposed to be grateful. They tried hard. If you want compensation apply to Alitalia – nothing to do with the Switzers.

 The nearest church to me is the Church of the Parish of Villamont, indeed in the Avenue Villamont round the corner.  Vaguely Romanesque in rough hewn stone, as if to withstand the blizzards of a Nordic winter, metaphor for the temptations of an evil world. German speaking, reformed, (Evangelisch), Protestant, presumably Lutheran,  associated with no saint’s name (unusual even for protestants in England), they nevertheless have stained glass windows, mostly geometric but also including a lunette of The Lamb of God holding a flag.  And they are double glazing it, even the pattern of the large rose window to the East (this is not Chartres, but quite complex all the same).  The glass has been carefully cut out and clear glass panels are being put on the outside. I asked, and was told that they will take down the coloured panels, restore and clean them and replace them. Wouldn’t it be grand if all churches were double glazed to save counter-environmental heating losses in churches!  21st  century religion includes the environment in its prayers and good works. 

 15th August – Ferragosto. Maria Himmelfahrt, Assumption of the Virgin.  Catholic Europe is on holiday today and so is neighbouring Valais, but  protestant Pays de Vaud, Lausanne (and England) work as usual.  They had prophesied rain all day but I walk under a blue sky, with a few wispy  clouds which quickly dispersed into a gorgeous, cloudless day.  But I had things to do, post office and market etc and hurried out before nine – it was already warm, with the gentlest breeze. This breeze however, had the smallest chill on it, which made it very pleasant. It seemed to me absolutely not summer but the first day of a lovely autumn.  By eleven it was still warmer but walking in the sun up a Lausannois hill was nevertheless possible. The sun was attenuated, softer, declining.  The forecast now shows all that rain for tomorrow.  Clouding over lightly by 5.00 pm.

 It wasn’t even anything violent or extreme. No heavy suitcase, or strain.  I just bent over slightly, ever so slightly, as I undressed, to lob my socks into the laundry basket and pop, ever so gently my back gave way. Ouch. Straightened up gingerly, not extreme pain but aching and nagging, some movements, some positions ok, but suddenly from feeling fine, I am an old, lame, halt, old man. Slowly to pick something off the floor, lying in bed is fine but getting up requires care. Fear of pain is almost as bad as pain. I had intended to do some house work today – can I do it? Slowly perhaps. Suddenly, living alone seems rather frightening. But the pain passed (mostly) and the mood passed – bad night. And no rain yet, even bits of blue in the sky. By eight o’clock it was raining lightly with a fresh wind off the lake – quite pleasant really. Open the windows, cup of tea, go and get a paper and read how badly the rest of the world in managing. Disasters far away are so comforting, especially if you have mild back pain.  When my. books return I shall look at Susan Sontag  again “Regarding the Pain of others” Good book buried nearly as deep in my cellar as under an earthquake, which the radio announces today in Peru.   But the book itself won’t come to harm.

 I seem to remember that the competition for the most boring headline would be won by “Small earthquake in Peru – few injured” but today the camera crews are there within hours and it is all over everywhere round the world.. In 1938 even Czchechoslovakia was called “A small distant country of which we know nothing” – but with TV and internet and blogs and things I suppose we do all know our neighbours better. Is this progress? I suppose so though my Vaudois still resent the Bernese invasion of 1543  and I believe Carinthians (South Austria) still resent Slovenian (doing duty for Serbian) wars only slightly more recently. The Bernese were finally driven out by Napoleon, which makes Vaud one of the few places he conquered where he is popular – but even that is 200 years ago. Of course he had the good fortune to be defeated himself before too long, and several years to gild his image in St Helena.

 For the first time in my life I can see why people become obsessed by the sea.  The lake (from the safety of my 8th floor bedroom window) is endlessly changeable, endless fascination, now calm as a mirror glass, or rough or both together, you can see bands of wind or rain moving over the face of the waters, and the reflection of the mountains behind, sometimes invisible altogether, sometimes crystal clear and reflecting, fresh and verdant, or white capped, or snow covered, or rocky.  And mists in the mountains or clouds above or blue sky and rainbows, lightening and thunder, and often several of these things in the same day, changing by the hour, almost by the minute.

 “Black Mass – Apocalyptic Religion and the death of Utopia” by John Gray 2007, p.132    Aristotle and Aquinas held to a teleological view of the world that modern science has rendered obsolete. Each viewed the cosmos as a system in which everything has a purpose. Since Darwin, this view of the natural world has ceased to be available. Nature is ruled by chance and necessity, and natural laws are regularities rather than prescriptions for the good life.  If there is a realm of value beyond the physical world it cannot be reached by human reason. [my emphasis]

 After several weeks of idyllic sunshine and coolish winds (a true Indian Summer as we used to say), on 27th September the temperature dropped 10ºC overnight; I suppose it rained too though I saw little inside – in the morning however the cloud capped hills above Evian had a dusting of snow, and the white heads looked cold. With the fields still bright green below the first rays of sunshine made a pretty sight though the temperature was uninviting.  Looking out on the north side, to the park of Mon Repos (“if it weren’t for all the houses in between”), and as I had also seen driving to Martigny the day before, the leaves were beginning to turn.  The wine harvest is being gathered, there is a wine festival at the weekend at Lutry (heurigen?), and everywhere else too I think. Autumn, harvest, winter.

 November: Impressions of the first nine months living is Switzerland: I like it here and I like my apartment. I like the landscape, mountains and waterfalls and snow and sun; the weather is clement and fine unless you want the maximal heat of the south (which I don’t) – it gets plenty warm enough for me.  Of course I have not spent a whole winter here yet.

 The geography is nicely central for the south of France, (Provence in 5 hours) Venice 7 hours,  Basel 2 hours, Zurich 2.15,  and Geneva of course 45 mins; in Switzerland only St Moritz, is truly 6/7 hours away and awkward. Language – many local people do not speak any German and a lot speak no English either – but they are not tiresomely prescriptive like frogs. Just glad if you can get by and be understood and tolerant of mistakes and prepared to speak slowly to a foreigner without shouting.

 Origins: Someone described me as ‘mixed’.  This I am really not. All my four grandparents were from Vienna, and all generations before that as far as I can tell. Two months old when I left you can count that as ‘originally Viennese’ ‘d’origine autrichien’, but all my ‘nurture’, intellectual and professional and social has been English. In England I used to say that my family came from Austria, but now that I live is Switzerland – should I say “d’origine Anglais” or “Autrichien”? I feel that the former would tell the enquirer more that he needs to know.  Besides, the helpful bureaucrats (vide infra) all changed the box on the forms that asked for ‘origine’ from Autriche to Grand Bretagne because, they explained,  the origin requested is my documentation, not my person. Documents before people. 

 But the Swiss too, like the Americans (and increasingly the British) can be hyphenated.  Almost everyone I meet here is ‘d’origine’ somewhere other than Pays de Vaud – Italian and Portuguese seem common in Lausanne as well as huge numbers from the northern German Switzerland: even Geneva or Berne count as foreign to the Vaudois.. My lovely frame maker, gilder lady (herself from German CH) admitted that her truly local husband was in fact from, well actually, from Neuchâtel (some 30 km to the north). Here at last I can be truly English! Like all expatriates I become more English the longer I am away.. The real German Swiss meanwhile make fun of the Suisse Romande without distinguishing between Lausanne and Geneva.

 The Lausannois, of whatever origin, like to think of themselves as French but they are much more Swiss than they think. Authoritarian, Protestant, law abiding, rule driven to the point of jobsworthiness, no play or ease. Speed limits, zebra crossings, Efficient, 

 The Lausannois think of themselves as French and the French make fun of them as peasants.  But this they are not – they are Switzers.  The Genevois disapprove of the Lausannois for being more efficient and call them Germans (German Swiss they mean), who happen to speak French.  In this they are right – Geneva is much more French, the waiters ruder and the food better and … stereotypes of course, but one can feel the difference. Little Geneva has about 150 km of border with France and only about 30 km of border with Switzerland (between the mountain and the lake). 

 

The Lausannois apply the mind blowing bureaucracy of Switzerland with immaculate efficiency (which they learned from the Bernese, during their 250 year occupation – they are detested for it) but being a bureaucrat here is a service, not a source of power. The girls and boys behind the counters are not surly and tiresome as in most countries, but on the contrary helpful, and make useful suggestions as to how you could get this form better corrected, more quickly. They will even give help themselves and fill in some boxes for you, all with charm and kindness. It is still incredibly tiresome to get a driving licence changed and you need to produce your identity card (with out that you have no identity and don’t exist) for the smallest thing. There was an article in the paper discussing the distress of the undocumented – you are dead, but they’re nice about it, not apologetic, must be done, but even a smile helps. I never saw a bureaucrat smile at Lambeth Borough Council.

 You would not expect me not to mention food.  The kitchen in my flat is not ideal but I am making do and learning. I am sure I live cheaper than in London and I eat quite well. I hate my ceramic top cooker and the littleness of the oven is a joke. But I did roast a duck in it. In general the food, both in restaurants and shops and the market, is MUCH  cheaper than London. Restaurants cost roughly in francs what they are in London in pounds, but they are also less good than I hoped. I am shopping around and have yet to find a really good butcher, offal is not available in general except to order (as in London, except for strange parts of pigs). Lake fish is boring except fera (which google/wikipedia says is extinct, but is widely eaten despite google) and I miss the north sea fish and the good smoked salmon of Wandsworth. I can get both but not exciting, rather tired and tasteless. On the other hand I have found a smoked herring in a plastic bag that grills well into a passable if rather salty, kipper, and I can also get a matjes (raw) herring.  I can get oysters which cost as much as in London (they are much cheaper in France). The veal is not as good as the Dutch we used to get, tomatoes are as tasteless and bright red and glass housey as Sainsbury’s. Fresh fruit is good and some other vegs and salads, but I don’t really  like salads. I found a Cox apple in Zurich, and now I find they grow them up the hill above Lausanne, called coxorange – hooray.

 On the other hand the market has a stand every week with wild mushrooms, Cèpes in season, chanterelles, and white truffles promised too. And a mixture for half the price (off cuts) which makes a wonderful ragout. I heard recently of an Estonian professor, wife a friend’s brother who collected and cooked mushrooms.  Now of course I don’t know which mushrooms they were eating, but at this time of year I suspect that there, as here, the great mushroom which the English call the ‘penny bun’ and the French call ‘cèpe’ and the Italians Porcini (little pig).  And in the Italian manner, I particular adore the head alone ‘a la griglia’ with virgin olive oil and garlic and parsley or sage (ideally catmint – but I can’t get it).  My friend described, and it keeps me awake, how she was shown how to remove the spongy spore bearing area “to stop it being slimy”.  It was just this that confirmed me in my belief that we were indeed talking about ‘boletus edulis’ or a closely related species.

 Now to describe those heads, when cooked, as ‘slimy’ is just possible, but it is a rude way of describing the delicious, succulent, creaminess of this esculent fungal flowering bodies of the spore bearer.  To castrate half the head, where resides the flavour and texture, soft and gentle upon the tongue, seems pointless to the point of sacrilege. Why would I want to eat it (admittedly without having paid quite a lot for it)  if it were deprived of its features that make it so worthwhile? I even find the stalks a little woody by comparison with the soft so so smooooothe intactness of the head.

 Soon the truffle season will be upon us and the mushroom lady assures me she will have them. Not the silly tasteless black French ones but the wonderful aromatic white Alba truffles of Northern Italy just over the border. That beats even the cèpe, but costs only just less than weapon’s-grade plutonium. But I shall not resist. 

 To sum up, I am settling in well, settled perhaps, though it is odd to feel so at home in rented property. Probably a function of having my goods and chattels with me – I came with every last old cooking pot and tattered shirt, as well as the art and furniture. But my old cooking pot serves me as well as it did before and if I had to buy a new one it would cost £50/60 and cumulatively I have a full house and NEED nothing of that sort. I threw away an old pressure cooker (artichokes) and bought a new one. I have sheets from my mother still, dead these forty years and more. I had to buy a new bed but kept the old one too for spare and slept in it for a few weeks longer.  I feel very much chez moi here, all my toys are with me as I say, not just the art. In fact the art looks well, I have hung nearly everything I have.

Lighting is still a problem. There are no ceiling lights and no wall lights either - only floor plugs. And the BOOKS. Nearly ALL my books are in the basement, all stored in all those very heavy  boxes and  I don't know where to put book cases. I worked out before I left London that I need circa 100 running metres of book shelves (at 7 rows floor to ceiling that is over 14 metres of wall. Doesn't sound much like that but I have NONE. If I really stay in this flat (280 m² - sunny and light with a view of the lake and centre-ville)  I shall have to do something radical like dedicate a whole room without pictures - hard. Even then I don't think I could get them all in. I have abandoned Thoreau as unreadable. Too bad about Walden. Pretentious drivel. 

 Quite an eventful year I guess. Guy continues to work at his bank and will be married next year in Italy. Luisa qualified as a solicitor and was admitted to the Law Society in a fine ceremony. She has decided to specialise in employment law which, as she explains, is very human based and every company in the land is in need of advice on the subject.  Sounds ok to me.

 Best wishes for Christmas and new year, and much love. Do write please, by email or post, and especially do come and visit,  I have spare rooms to overnight you. The airport is close, the railway station closer. I am in the middle, in media res.

 

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